We have often thought about not waking up anymore, or getting struck by lightning, or crashing into a deep pit - but did we ever think about what happens after? You’d probably say, “no one would care” or, “it would make a difference to anyone, anywhere.”
Today, I realized that that was wrong. I woke up today with the feeling of regret, the feeling that I shouldn’t have had the chance to open my eyes again and feel my lungs breathe deep. In my head, last night should have been my last night. Death is somehow the best escape anyone who’s had hard times hope for, and they’re probably wishing that the next second would be their last.
But to think that way would be selfish. To think that you could just stop the clock from ticking would be the most selfish thing ever. To think about putting an end to your problems with one action, would just make it about you - but you should be worried about the world around you, about how things are going to change gravely when you are gone.
You might have not realized it yet, but the world works well with tiny little cogs in its system. You are one of those cogs. One small piece that makes everything happen in order, in the whole consequence of life and action. It is you that makes everything possible - and to take yourself away because turning in sync with others has become too hard, imagine these other cogs and the heavier load they would have to carry.
Believe it or not, you have been an important piece - and still is - in this whole activation. You have been - and again, will be - a friend to another who is in need. You have been - and again, will be - a person who has inspired another to be better. You have been - and again, will be - the reason someone wakes up at five in the morning for. Your parents wake up everyday and struggle to the turn the pieces of the world to make a living for you because they know how hard life can get and will do everything to make that easier for you so you can reach greater distances and climb taller heights. Your friends try and try harder at understanding their lives and their purpose because you somehow inspired them to do so by living your life the way it is supposed to be and by trying to understand your own life and purpose. It is because of you that the world turns the way it turns.
These cogs piece together because they serve a purpose for one another. You live through life with them and they life through life because of you. You live for people the way they live for you. And someday, you will see that you exist because you can be a shoulder to lean on to; they exist because they have a shoulder you can lean on to.
It is a mutual celebration in the whole complexity of life’s clockwork.